[ His brows rose in surprise at Cullen's confession. ]
You are? [ a faint, brief chuckle escaped him. ] Perhaps that is how I knew you were the one to come to. [ it was a joke, clearly, because Fenris always came to Cullen for advice regardless of the topic. his trust in him was more than a little obvious. ]
[He nodded, his faint smile at his assertion somewhat quick to fade at the question.]
No. I'm needed in Thedas, and she would understand that. She's bound to duty, as well. But I don't judge anyone following a different path. If I weren't in such a position of responsibility there, it would be different.
Yes, although...well, I was looking into changing that to a degree before I came here. However, in the wake of what Lavellan told me, I'm not sure I should.
[He reaches to stroke a hand lightly down his arm, an affectionate gesture.]
I'd miss you, too, if you were to leave here first. Knowing that you don't wish it, I hope it doesn't happen.
[ Affection was something Fenris was always starved for, whether he wanted to admit it or not. He was so comfortable with Cullen that he did not attempt to flinch away or deny it, he allowed himself to enjoy that touch with a faint smile and his head slightly lowered. ]
In Thedas, nothing good ever lasted for me. Perhaps this will be different.
[ a rare moment of hope for Fenris. ]
I do not care to be involved with what Lavellan spoke of, perhaps that is selfish of me.
You are less selfish than I. You are a good man, Cullen, and I am grateful you are my friend.
[ It was better to say it than to bottle up the feelings he had, being in this city had taught him that. He had to be open, and not a constant ball of prickly self-protection. He was never more grateful for these bonds he had formed, and the idea that they might actually hold fast even if Danarius were to appear. ]
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You are? [ a faint, brief chuckle escaped him. ] Perhaps that is how I knew you were the one to come to. [ it was a joke, clearly, because Fenris always came to Cullen for advice regardless of the topic. his trust in him was more than a little obvious. ]
Would you stay to be with them?
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No. I'm needed in Thedas, and she would understand that. She's bound to duty, as well. But I don't judge anyone following a different path. If I weren't in such a position of responsibility there, it would be different.
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[ When he said it his tone was not judgmental, just curious. He had never really had a 'duty' to anyone, not in the sense that Cullen had anyway. ]
I would miss you, Cullen, if you were gone.
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[He reaches to stroke a hand lightly down his arm, an affectionate gesture.]
I'd miss you, too, if you were to leave here first. Knowing that you don't wish it, I hope it doesn't happen.
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In Thedas, nothing good ever lasted for me. Perhaps this will be different.
[ a rare moment of hope for Fenris. ]
I do not care to be involved with what Lavellan spoke of, perhaps that is selfish of me.
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[He can hope that for him, as well, given what he now knows. He lets out a soft chuff. It's not amused.]
I don't wish to be involved with it either, but...I have a feeling I'll be needed. If that is the case, then I want to be there.
[Even if it's to see their world end. As hard as he has fought for it, he'd rather go down fighting than whisked away somewhere distant.]
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[ It was better to say it than to bottle up the feelings he had, being in this city had taught him that. He had to be open, and not a constant ball of prickly self-protection. He was never more grateful for these bonds he had formed, and the idea that they might actually hold fast even if Danarius were to appear. ]
Thank you.